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My Perfect Man : Written Edition

Hey Beauties,

Yesterrday i posted a podcast of “My perfect Man”, if you haven’t already gone and listened to it go on over and take a boo. However i decided to post the written version as well just incase some people don’t feel like listening to my voice for 6 minutes.


I actually don’t think my standards are high at all, the world as has come to sad, sad place where everyone just settles.That’s not for me. I wont settle until my perfect man comes along to me.

I’ve always been a hopeless romantic; I think the first time was when I watched titanic way back when I was like 9 years old. I know crazy right? To think a nine-year-old thought of romance, but I did from then on I would read romance novels and watch romance movies.

Which leads me to now.

Almost 20 and the hopeless romantic still lives within hoping that perfect someone will bump me on the street or ask what book I’m reading at a cute coffee shop, just like in the movies.

I’m not saying my next date will lead to the one, no but one-night stands aren’t my style, and I can’t just justify going on a date with a any guy just because.

Hopefully, my relationship when it does come will grow with any guy who’s worth the investment of my time. Which sadly no man I’ve met stays past the first date, they invest their time for one night, and everything goes swell. Then BAM. Its ghost town.

Dare I say I’ve never made it to the second date with anyone?

My friends and family continuously will tell me, “You don’t need to look for someone perfect. You just need to someone who will give you some intimacy and not call you back tomorrow.”

Or the big one “YOURE TO PICKY”

I disagree. Look the guy doesn’t have to be perfect, but he has to be perfect for me. And I’m not picky at all; I just have self-respect and standards, which over time everyone, deemed as unacceptable.

I bet you’re all wondering wow this chick has never even made it to the second date? Whoa that’s crazy that’s ratchet. Its not. Look what I’ve came to realize is that men today cant handle strong woman, ok there’s some but not many around me. They run away scared.

And sorry but I’m not into chasing people especially men around the planet just for some affection, my perfect man is going to give me affection when I don’t even ask for it.

My perfect man yes man not boy because boys have to learn respect for women.

My perfect man won’t hesitate about anything; he’ll keep it straight and to the point always even though he knows sometimes that may hurt me. From what I’ve learned is that if your partner can’t tell you when you’re being a bitch and you cant tell them when their being a complete dick your relationship isn’t strong at all.

My perfect man will respect me enough to give me girl time and I’ll do the same for him wit his Bro time. It’s only fair and honestly space is good.

My perfect man will understand how lucky he truly is, he wont play these games and the quote “you don’t know what you’ve got till its not gone” wont come into play because he should know what he has.

My perfect man is mature enough to face commitment. Look I’m not asking for marriage, kids and sweet little home in Alabama. No what I’m asking for is commitment to me and to the relationship. If you’re going to cheat break up with me or be single. It’s that simple.

My perfect man will understand how much he means to me without having to ask. He should know and if doesn’t then clearly he’s not invested enough or lacks trust.

My perfect man, dare I say will be afraid of losing me. You know like those moments in movies where the girl will leave and the boy is heartbroken and goes crazy until she speaks to him again. Yeah that’s what I want. I get it you’re a man, you don’t cry but lets be real here, if you’re upset when your Xbox dies you better be upset when I fucking leave, if they don’t get upset well truly the relationship wasn’t what I thought.

My perfect will have good hygiene. If I have to shave my legs and whatever else you do as well.

My perfect man will live for adventure. Not saying we have to go hiking or backpacking across Europe this very second. What I’m saying is that I want someone who is willing to get ice cream at 3am just to sit up and watch movies with me.

My perfect man will be a bad boy at heart. Sorry I love the good guys but every guy has a bit of bad boy in them. There my weakness I like the leather jackets the motorbikes, the man bun the tattoos sue me.

My perfect man will have a smile that love. I’m big on smiles and the whole face in general. Ok? Sometimes it’s about the looks.

My perfect will enjoy working out and hitting the gym or come running with me. I like guys who want to live a nice healthy lifestyle sue me. But don’t make the gym your entire life.

My perfect man will like to cook. Hey I get it, its not everyone’s forte but my perfect guy yes he’ll enjoy the act of cooking and eating.

My perfect man Wont be afraid to go after what he wants.

I always get asked, “What’s your type?”

That’s my type the guy who isn’t afraid to go after what he wants in life.

And finally my perfect man will be happy, he’ll want to make me happy the relationship a happy environment. I get it all couples fight here and there but that’s not what the whole relationship should or what you always talk about to girl friends at brunch.

You should always want to talk positive of your significant other. Always.

SO in the end I don’t think my standards are high at all. Sure I may have never been in a solid relationship before which get thrown in face a lot. But that’s doesn’t mean I know any less. In fact sometimes I think I know more than my friends are in them, because I’ve seen all what happens and know exactly what I want.

Don’t settle and this is for both women and men. STOP settling go after what you truly want, not what just looks good.


Have a fabulous Sunday and a great week, i’ll try to post something this week but i have two photoshoots, homework and short film I’m filing super excited!



My standards aren’t high, you’re just not my perfect

Hey Beauties,

So today I decided to do another podcast, I actually love doing these.

“I actually don’t think my standards are high at all, the world as has come to a sad, sad place where everyone just settles.”

I’m current reading Minday Kaling’s book called ” Is everyone hanging out without me? (and other concerns)” and I finally got to the chapter of boys and romance  where I found my newest most favourite piece advice to ever give a man.


This speaks to me a lot, look I love when a guy gets a little jealous or over protective it shows he cares and it brings off this “She’s my woman” kind of vibe which I find incredibly sexy.

Finding this quote brought on the idea of doing a write-up on My perfect Man especially with everyone always asking me what my type is or telling me that I’m too picky, please I have standards and this si why I think none of them are high at all.

I hope you all enjoy listening 🙂



I’m Real, Positive and ready to go

Hey Beauties,

Lately I’ve been posting a lot about dating and my previous experience that’s ended in heartbreak which ties in with today’s post.

I’m going to share myself, yes kids I AM REAL haha. Not that you all thought I wasn’t but hey why not post a video that’s  both kind of funny and positive?

Basically what I’m trying to get across here is that Being an all around positive person will get you further than being negative. Trust me I’ve been that negative Nelly and it wasn’t pleasant for anyone. From all the previous players I’ve dealt with, its taught me to be a better more positive person, learning that at the end of the day the only person who will love you endlessly is yourself. That may sound vain or superficial but its the truth at least to me.

I honestly feel like in today’s society a lot of people are negative why? because they resort to online dating, hiding behind screens and fat/ skinny shaming people they don’t even know.

Am i even making sense right now?

Positive body image, mind, soul and dating life all comes from within. Start off with making yourself happy and believe me DO NOT change yourself for anyone, it never works and while you’re at it DO NOT try to change anyone either. People only change if they want to, not if someone offers to do it for them.

To find that perfect person look no further than the mirror, because that’s the person you have to see everyday in and out through thick and thin. They are the ones who cry with you when sad and watch endless movies with. Love that person first, before anyone else and I promise another person who will almost be like the “cherry on top” will come along.

I’ll let what I said in the video speak for itself.



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‘Cause you know I love the players, And you love the game… but it made me wiser

Hey Beauties,

*Before I start off with my dating and men rant, if you listened to my previous post it will all seem a tad clearer.

Yes you all read that title right, it’s simply the one lyric in Taylor Swifts “Blank Space” that i can relate to, actually that whole song should be my theme song whenever i walk into a room. Actually scratch that her whole album 1989 should just starting playing wherever I go.

From my last post about my Tinder “Hookup Heartbreak” which i hope you all enjoyed listening to, and believe it or not everything i said was true, that guy with all of his magical qualities  left me heartbroken and yes it sucked and it still does sadly because somehow he still has a hold over me. I guess there’s apart of me that still has hope, but I know at the end of the day he’s gone. And you know what they say “Let something or someone go and if they come back, it was meant to be. If they don’t they weren’t yours in the first place.”

To summarize my dating life thus far > It’s almost as if I have the words “Come at me I love players and getting played” tattooed to my face. I don’t just to be clear.  They seem to gravitate toward me, and with in mind last year I was very naive, maybe almost desperate, and a tad bit lonely.

With all that being said, I’ve always been told that I come off as a “Bitch”, “Too Picky”, Too Quiet” etc. in daily life and especially in the dating world. Maybe I’m picky because I have standards, maybe I’m a bitch because I’ve been played too many times and maybe I’m quiet because id rather listen than speak.

At the end of the day dealing with all the players and the new-found word “Fuck boys” has taught me to not only be a bitch but to be a wiser bitch, something my Oma told me when I was really irritated one day. “It’s not about being the bigger bitch it’s about being the wiser bitch”

With all the mind games and tricks going on these days, it’s almost impossible to find “The one” so we resort to using online dating which coming from experience is the most useless crap ever. Don’t do it. I had tinder 3 times before I told myself that this was useless and th guys were just looking for a good time. Have enough respect for yourself to let the online dating go, become wiser and realize that childish games are not ok.

Anyway what I’m trying to say is that in todays dating world you have to learn to play the game but in a wise manner and thats what I’ve learned . You have to just go on with your life and let it happen. Don’t plan.

Because of all this I’m no longer naive lonely desperate I’m happy and that’s what matters. As long as you make yourself happy, because quite honestly and i had to learn the hard way someone else will in no way make your life any better if you’re not happy to start off with. You cannot combine two problems and hope to make a fix.

This week I’m also going to be posting a video what will it be? A rant about dating perhaps or a make tutorial or both who knows actually haha.

Anyway that’s all for today and later I’ll be posting what this week’s tune of the week is.



My Tinder experience- Hook Up Heartbreak

Hey Beauties, so as promised this was my Tinder experience and My very first Hook-Up heartbreak i know most of us have dealt with these in the past and its time to face the facts.

I hope you all enjoy listening and feedback is always welcomed.

Thanks so much and have an amazing day.

P.s I just got my cartilage pierced and now my ear is screaming at me haha.



An Open Letter To Every Boy Who “Doesn’t Want A Relationship Right Now”

Absolutely love this especially with my next post consisting of my Tinder experience oh yes ladies you read that right Tinder we all have one or so i did.

Thought Catalog

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I hear you, dude. I hear you with flying colors. Some girls can be clingy. You like your space, and you care about your career and your gym time. After all, who needs romance when your bromance is at an all time high?

You’re trying to decipher what to do with your life and that’s fine. Being selfish and single at a young age is vital, and many women crave exactly the same freedom. The thing is, you’re going to meet a lot of great people along the way – people who are also happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time (cue the Taylor Swift song – but really). Sharing this stage of your life with someone special can be equally as beneficial, and I’ve found that most guys want exactly that. They genuinely enjoy talking to someone on a daily basis and getting to know another…

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